Now thats a life!!!

Now since i was away at college and was not very much interested in blogging,my blog was left pretty much untouched. Now i am in home and while was wiling away time i decided to go and start blogging.

Now i am in home waiting for the call from my company and i was thinking back on the decisions i had made in my life till now and i realized that i have been living on the decisions of others.

My dad wanted me to switch schools in Higher Secondary as my marks were not satisfactory.Though i had 90%, since i was one of the most blessed(read as cursed) 'Forward Class' people in my country i was made to go to SRV and stay at hostel there.

Life was good and i got good marks and wanted to take up Aeronautical Engineering. My dad wouldnt hear of it and he forced me to take ECE at PSG Tech. I started studying and was lower in the marks and i started bunking classes a lot. I dont know what had happened but i was totally not interested in anything except Games and fun. And somehow i managed to get a percentage of 80.

Now thinking back, i guess i didnot want to be there in the first place. But i was not heard of and my dad ignores my decidions even today. He wants to go for a Government Job like JTO while i want to become a MBA graduate. Is this the system of life in India or am i missing something here???Am i afraid to speak up to my father or am i afraid of living by my decisions???Am i being heard of or am i not speaking loud enough???Wat is my true identity???Wat is my code of living??
Do i have anything to live by or live for or live with???Thinking of all this makes me utter mad and so i am going into games again???Wat has my life become and wat is it going to be????Utterly confused!!!